The Journey

Well it has been almost 2 months since Lucas was born and I realized that I have yet to write a blog post.  So much has happened within the past 2 months that I don’t even know where to begin.

I need to begin by thanking my Savior for renewing my strength every day and providing me with patience that only he can give.  Motherhood has been amazing and hard all at the same time.  Lucas is a wonderful baby and I could not have asked for a better experience, but the adjustments of becoming a mother and a stay at home one have often been difficult.  I often find myself clinging to my selfish personal desires (i.e. – can you please take a nap Lucas so that mommy can have some time all to herself?) but the Lord is working on me and helping me through this time.

My second thought, one of which I have been meaning to write about for some time is about breastfeeding.  Breastfeeding is by far one of the most wonderful and frustrating things I have ever done.  From the beginning I have been dedicated to it but that doesn’t remove the frustration of difficult days.  It is amazing to look at him develop and grow and realize that I am nourishing his little body with mine.  Though at times, Lucas has eyes bigger than his tummy and he nurses for too long.  This, in turn, leads to him throwing up everything in that little tummy of his.  Then he realizes he has nothing in his tummy and cries for more.  It is at this point that I become frustrated and have to work hard not to cry because I have given him all I have and he will just have to wait it out for a little while until my body can recover and produce more.  Thankfully we are both learning so these frustrating times are becoming less and less.

While I have plenty more in my head to write about, my time is limited and I need to eat before Lucas wakes up from his nap.